Vulnerability
{3/4/2021}
Does anyone else struggle with seasonal depression? Understanding that this is a moment of vulnerability from someone who doesn’t like to be vulnerable, I couldn’t help but reflect on the pull this last season has had on me that I simply fought through and tried to disregard. It has been almost exactly 1 year since COVID came rearing its ugly head into our world and, although I’m not one to live in fear, I think we can all agree it took a toll on our mindset.
I started off strong, trying to be the light and find the light and that joy switch started to fade around Fall, leading straight into my least favorite season. Don’t get me wrong, there was some joyful moments mixed in through the holidays (although we navigated them very differently this year) but, for the most part, the cold + early evenings don’t bring out the best in me…the past few weeks, I’ve felt like a new person with this sunshine and warmer weather!
Which leads me to this morning…Our dog, Gamble, NEVER wakes us up early!! She will stay in the bed until we move (and sometimes still doesn’t wake up yet). This morning, she got me up at 5:30. I laid in bed and read my devotional – something I try to do every morning before I check social media or email – and realized homegirl had to go out + there was no way I was going back to sleep. So, I let her out, made a cup of coffee, snuggled up on the couch with my new book (thanks @fengshuiash), got to watch the sunrise and enjoyed a me moment before my favorite storm of wife/mom/business owner took off for the day!
Oh how I’ve missed these miracle mornings and oh how I’ve missed you, Spring. For everything, there is a season, so I will continue to learn to find the beauty in each. That said, I pray that the one ahead is full of peace + hope for the future for all of us!
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